2009 Peace out.

This is a 2009 wrap up, but it's time to move onto 2010. I'm mudafucking prepared for this shit already. Looking back at 2009, lotsa shit happened, it consisted some of the most rememorable days of my life. I can recall from the top of my head, that winter formal, spring fling, prom and a few more was pretty fucking fun.

Time to move on bitches.......
Bring those new year resolutions out....
I'll start with mine:
- Stop smoking completely, no weekend exceptions.
- Get a girlfriend and get some good mclovin'
- Get better grades
- Make good use of my loan that just got approved.. bitches $5000.......
- try not to go on academic probation again.
- work more often and not waste time doing nothing
- become a corporal within a year, level up on this steeze so i don't have to be a private cheng anymore.
- buy more jordans and supreme
- level up on the steeze, 1 more notch.

That's all i can think of right now.

Nigguhz let's go hotpotting!

"Hey we can work together, that way i can have a shift with you. But that's okay girl, if you don't have time for me, i understand, entirely. You weren't the first one to say no anyways."

I've come to a long conclusion that, you weren't like those girls that i've seen. You're special, you're unique in you're very own way. You're fly, i can't deny, but you're not the good girl, that kinda took my world. I'll show you what you're worth, if you let me inside your world.














Nigguhs, got nothing on me, if you want come get it, if you don't nigguh, fuck off. Simple as 1 2 3.

I'm almost there.

So today was rather boring as usual, nothing but the average life of private cheng, eh?
Went out to hang out with my parents and had to ditch out on Sarah. And than came home for dinner, because i haven't had a homecooked meal since last tuesday and than went out to go hang out with some highschool friends, i guess you could call it a reunion. Haven't seen any of them since June, they've been doing their shit and i've been doing my own kinda steeze, in other words, we all made up for it today at Pearl Castle. That pretty much sums up my day.

On a side note, i have a feeling you won't change, i'm not asking you to change or anything but the things you do got me thinking, 2nd thoughts, 3rd thoughts and maybe 4th. Is it worth all this hassle? A question i'll be keeping in the back of my head, everytime, every now and than i'll ask myself is it worth my time, is it worth the chance to take, what are the risks? Whatever.

Peace and love.








out

rewind.

Second thoughts, second thoughts.....
Am i doing the right thing to satisfy myself or my needs? Second thoughts, second thoughts.
Anyway that was fun, but still, second thoughts.

Merry Christmas bitches.

Sorrry for the late "merry Christmas" shoutoutz, and again MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS!
Work Work Work, for me 11.30 - 8, come hit me up at footlocker. Expecting to see a lot of you at the mall, and of course a lot of CUTIESSSSSS that always go into footlocker. Haven't been blogging all too much lately due to work and chillin' with some steezy people.
I've realized that Christmas gets shittier every year, i don't know if it was the snow but last year "sorta" felt like Christmas, this year felt like any other day. Let's keep this tradition going, Christmas please do not die on me, i need you in my life.
I'm pretty excited for Boxing Day actually, although i won't be doing a lot of shopping, but seeing people happy with their "robocops" sorta makes me happy in a way too.

Anticipating the next few days..... please let it be smoooooothhhhhhhhh... I'm praying on it.

"Why don't we take pictures at the photobooth every month, that way we won't forget about our good and bad times, since your memory is so bad..."

*pictures are not at their greatest quality... MY BADD*































OUT

If she knewwwww

Sometimes things don't go as planned, but whatever. Friends, girlfriends whatever, same stuff anyway. I never thought of really being your friend to be honest, i thought it was the go in and get the kill kinda deal. It's not that easy, even though it's all about the click and the game, maybe the eye fuck, but it doesn't go down like that. At least, not anymore.

"Babe, i don't care if i'm your 2nd option, but i'm glad that i am option to you. ..."

It was hard for to ask you that question, but if i didn't, i'd be filled with "what if's" that might haunt me for the rest of my life.....
Now at least open up to me.

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This christmas i think i might ruin my parents christmas. No it's not about the shitty useless gift i'm about to give them, it's about school. I haven't told them i didn't pass one of my course yet and that another course for next term dropped. Better yet, they still don't know if my student loan has been approved yet. This shit worries the hell outta me, i'm not sure how to confront them. They've been rushin me to finish up my time at Langara and quickly transfer to university, i'm not even sure if that's a possibility right now. Although i'm paying for school on my own right now, i feel as if my parents are only there to encourage to get into university so that they can brag about it to the chinese mothers. So fuck that shit.

Dad, please do not hate me, i actually studied much harder than in highschool.

Have a happy Christmas!

Your son, Leon.

Who knows where it'll take us?

I'm sure some of you know that i started working at Footlocker a few days ago. When i first got the job i was like 'Damn, discount bitches, and it should be fun, cute girls here and there.' The "cute girls here and there" is entirely true, however it's not that fun to be honest. It sucks. Customers come in expecting you know everything about shoes, from sandals to "lugg"(knock off UGG) boots. I was surprised at how much i didn't know about shoes, i walked into footlocker thinking i was gonna be "pro" at this shit, turns out that i was WRONG. Looking for shoes and sizes at the back is a pain, and since it's christmas holiday, it's always packed until closing. Other than my rant about work, pretty stoked about the fact that exams are Done, however i failed Philosophy, but that's okay i guess, didn't expect to pass anyways.

I noticed that i've been rambling a lot about girls lately, so in this entry i'll keep that shit at a minimum.
I'm not sure what to do at the stage, it sucks to sit around and wait, hoping that "good things will come." You can be my newwwww girll...... no jokes, no game... I thought to myself i had a chick that didn't last, so you can be my newww girllll

fits of the last few days..


"Girls make me cry.."



"Streetwear saturdays"

Departure

So as some of you know, i've already moved. The process of moving for me was quite fast to be honest. My house in Richmond is near empty except for the garage, with a shitload of junk. I'm not really used to livin' back at my grandparents place, even though i lived there for a year, last year. I knew one day it would come down like this, because good things don't last for shit.
And for the 1413213112312 time, i apologize to the people that i pissed off lately, been mad cranky again. The fact that i failed my philosophy course and possibly one of my criminology courses isn't helping either. FML FML FML

While cleanin' up some junk i found a lot of goodies.....


Nigguhs, i'm legit.








hahahahah damnnnnn










I made this about 2 years ago for my mom, but i never got a chance to give this to her, from what i recall i think i got into a bigass arguement with her............................

But yeah it's pretty lame.





This was suppose to be for a girl that i liked back in 07 summer, i did some retarded shit and she got mad at me. Eventually friendzoned myself and than now we barely even talk.
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This is the true story of Private Cheng.
Out.

Girl, your on another level.

I think i found my sole mate after all.

One day, you may get bored of that "livin' the fast life" shit and want to settle down.. That's when you know i'm around.

Satisfying day overall, i'm happy, for now. Peace and love.

She's running through my mind alll day....

I'm starting to notice the differences and incompatibilities, between you and i... It sucks to say that i'm gonna probably call off this chase, was looking forward to it, but eh sometimes things don't go as planned. Fuck it.

editt--

Let me know if i'm wasting my time, it seems like everytime i open up my heart, you're already in love.......


muthafucka out.

"Poppin' out of the kitchen"

So yesterday after my final i went to go chill widdd Sarah, again. This time we decided to bake some coookiez, good shit, good shit. Anyway, i can't wait until i finish my last final on Tuesday. Anticipating this coming weekend, finding out my shifts for FOOTLOCKER(yes, i got hired, Metro if you were wondering) andd chillage with some people, hopefully it'll turn out to be okay.

I'll let the pictures do some talking....
















Private Cheng is out.

Step your game up?

This is my 4th attempt to write an entry for this blog, i couldn't come up with anything in particular that i wanted to elaborate on. So i just wanted to say that today was pretty fun actually.
Went to Langara, to chill around, and check on my student loan status and than i went to go chill with Sarah. Hahaha, i can't believe she fucking beat me in streetfighter and mortal combat, and i tried too. Went to Metro to chill around took some retarded looking sticker pictures, LOL. First attempt was at the photo booth, because those things are wayyy underrated, but turns out that both photo booths were "out of order," so we went back to CHQ for some hongerness stickerpictures. SO yeah here i am trying to study now, good attempt eh?




And here's my attempt at making another poem/rhyming thingie mcbobber.
ANd remember i'm not full black, just because i have nigger lips doesn't mean i can spit like them.

I've come to the conclusion that good things don't last.
I was just thinking it was all from the past.
I didn't want it to end because it happened too fast.
Daddy and Mommy got into arguements when i was being bad.
I didn't know it would make them that sad.
I guess all i could do was to get mad.
I could remember that one day a girl came into my life.
I was young and naive and thought she could maybe be my wife.
Although she was my one week fling,
I don't care because it ain't mean a thing,
Hearing her sing, made me feel like a king
Giving up on her wasn't easy,
But i didn't mean to be cheesey,
Sometimes I don't know what to do,
It's okay because we are through.....
Baby, it was you and i,
when i met you, you looked too fly,
The past is the past, and now all i have to say is bye.

Sorry guys, felt like writing this because i was BORED.

Soon to take the exit.

I don't know why i am cranky all the time. It makes me sad when i ask myself, why do i always have so much excessive energy? Why do i never feel tired anymore? Why is it that i can't sleep at night? If i knew the answer to these questions i'd be god.

Why is it so hard to tell a friend your problems? It feels as if you'd make yourself look like a clown if you were to tell them anything, well for me at least. I'm not sure about you guys.

Let me know what you think.
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Damn, girl you're a mad turn offf to me. Stop it, please.
Fuck this shit, i feel so sick right now, sick of your "bleh"ness and nasal congestion building up. Sad, just when i'm studying for exams. Not the best time to get sick eh...
But damn, biggest turn offf i know. Joking or not , you're a turn off.

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I hate the fact that i'm moving sooooo soon, say in about approximately 2 weeks, but there's nothing i can do. Sighhh....

Monikha/Sarah's party was pretty fun actually, met a lot of random people, the sad thing is that i forgot a lot of their names. Highlight of the day was "reuniting" with some of my classmates from elementary, i thought that was hilarious, but other than that, that's it.

It sucks to find out that your compatibility with her wasn't there, she's sometimes cute, and she's sometimes a turn off. I'm frustrated with myself, is it the fact that i keep pushing myself to keep "lookin" or is it the fact that i'm just too shallow? I know sometimes i'd be like " eh yo shes cute and im super duper interested," but don't take me wrong, i try to look for the better things in her, aside from her physical appearance. Emotional attraction, thats exactly what i'm looking for.

Fits and pick up this week...
I apologize for the gay poses..
Nothing spectacular.