And i'm leaving...

My departures tomorrow but i dont think anyone really cares to be honest. Whatever, i hope i'm ready for this, i've been waiting all year long just to make this happen, and now it's finally going to happen. I'm about 90% packed up, i hope i don't forget anything, because i'd get ass fucked if i miss anything. I think my parents are worried about me leaving for a month, i was carefree until as of present, 9:12pm, just about 11hours before my flight takes off. What worries me most is how i'll get there because i have to go get to Edmonton Airport, take a taxi to greyhound in downtown. From Greyhound i have to sit in the greyhound for 3hours and than i'll arrive in a small town called wainwright, and than ANOTHER taxi to my base. I'm scared already because i'm all on my own and all the expenses i have to pay for them, but the government will reimburse me. It's funny, my dad's like take $200 cash with you, you're gonna need it, and then we'll put another $100 into your bank accoutn so you can use debit if you really need it. I told him, no it's okay i have enough, so when i just got home i checked my online banking and before i added that $100, i had $9.68. That would be really assed fucked.


Tonight i had my last home cooked meal, it might be another month until i actually eat my grandma's cooking again. As for love, i'll put that aside, maybe think about it when i can't sleep at camp and try to fix the mistakes from the past. On the plane tomorrow at 8:00am, i'll probably look at the pictures i took with my dslr from my ipod and think about the good times that will only come so soon. 1 month baby.. 1 month.

Today has hit me pretty hard, i'm sure everyone's really proud of me going, but the thing is, can i finish the course without getting kicked out? This process is to test my balls and it will definitely "man-me-up" and yes i will come back walking around with that swag'.
You guys better prey that i don't come home until atleast August 1st. (Duration of the course is from July 2nd - August 1st).
Remember to write me emails, leave me voice messages, and of course mail me cash..
I thought of another way to communicate with you guys, if you guys wanna hear how i'm doing.. i'll probably be updating my voicemail greetings

D89 151 650 PTE CHENG
BMQ 0799 B039/08
Land Force Western Area Training Centre
Wainwright Denwood AB T0B 1B0

So guys......... this is it. No computers, no cellphones, no mp3's. It's just hardcore intensive training. WAIT actually i might bring my laptop =).



This ain't the last of me.

But i'm outs!

peace out on the first

ALright brothers and sisters. I'm officially leaving on July 1st 8:00am taking the westjet( if you're taking the same flight LET ME KNOW =D) and then taking the ground hound at Edmonton to Wainsright. SO if you miss me write to me or leave me voicemail messages!!!
Oh yeah and don't forget about me. You'll see a new and improved me when i'm back. Looking forward to those days already. For now, i'm not sure when i'll be back, but i will be back.

Let's make the best of the last 2 days i'm going to be here for.


edit-----

Aite so today was a pretty good day. Chilled with mae and then joe and friends after. Relaxing day, the usual. It's going down pretty well for me just livin' life, i love how it's soo carefree right now and yeah i'm stoked about going to college too, but eh the way it's going down right now it's kinda weird. You know how they say only the good friends stick around, wow i don't even who's considered good anymore. It's weird, i knew some weren't gonna stick around for sure, but damn i already feel excluded from a lot of the stuff that's going on. Time to make a few new friends at College i guess. Thanks for those who came out today to say a goodbye, whether it'd be a month or two for me.

For army, i dont even know what i got myself into. I just got a buzz cut, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be but meh. I hate how i have to go away. You know that feelin' when you're gone for a certain period of time and then you feel kinda left out when you're back because you're not updated with the things going around. Not cool.
I'm guessing 3/4 you people don't know i'm leaving. S'all good. I have one more day of luxury, and the next 30 days are gonna be hell. So tomorrow imma just sit at home and relax one last final day, and gather my thoughts. It ain't just a physical game.
I fear no evil.

Sigh, sometimes i wish on that day we could of just sit and talk it out. It bothers me even more when i think about it. But why do i care if you don't?

This is a sadassssss movie, Marley and Me...
I swear if you watch it, you'll cry like a baby. I did.
" If you give a dog your heart, he'll give you his"





Peace and love.

Private Cheng, Outs.

July 2nd.

Soo as i was working today at Mcdix, i received a call from the National Defense of Canada. I was like wtf? So than a corporal at my unit calls me and she's like "Hey Private Cheng, are you able to go to training on July 2nd? This is a yes or no answer, and i need the answer now." So obviously i said yes. But damn guys, i have so little days left in vancouver and i didn't even expect it, when they turned me down a few weeks ago. Just when i was getting stoked for July i receive a call like this. Whatever s'all good and guess what? The training camp is in Alberta. So guys if you miss me, love me, want me, anything to do with me write me emails and if i ever get a chance i'll probably read em first thing.

I hope i get my student loan application done before i leave too, because if my application doesn't get accepted i'm fucked. Wish me luck boyz and galz. At least i got my course selection done! So if you guys are going to langara and wanna eat lunch, i get 2hour lunch break on Mondays at 12:30 until 2.30, Tuesdays at 12.30 and then one hour break on wednesday from 1.30 - 2.30. Pretty happy that i got my schedule sorted out, because i only have 3 days of school and 4 day long weekend every single week for first semester. YAY

Gonna try to go out as much as possible, so who's down to chill this weekend?

Let the days count down baby....

Course .. What?

Fuck, i hate course planning. Why am i being so hateful lately? Because we're all human, i'm sure you all fucking complain, don't tell me you don't.
I'm sure if you were course planning, you'd be frustrated. Currently i've been sitting here for more than 1.5hr planning out how my courses will work out. Of course i have to budget lunch time and i don't want morning classes which start at 8.30 and thinking about if i should get friday's off to relax and chill and study and do whatever the hell i want. And course confliction fucking suxs shit.

I've come to realization that being human isn't so easy. Just when things seemed easier as it gets since it's Summer, i feel that saying a simple sorry is fucking hard. You might just think that "eh, how hard is it to say it? stop being a pussy." I mean even getting my grandpa something was a hassle, the worse part was giving it to him. I ran out of ideas on fathers day for my grandpa, so i bought him a chocolate bar. Instead i lost my pair of balls and ate it myself. I guess people have to earn some courage in order to "grow a pair," however it's not easy as it sounds.

You ain't the girl i use to know.

Hey Hey Hey. Part 2.

Im currently writing this entry on bus on wordpad and then probably copying it onto blogspot later tonight. Loser/Lame much?
Yeah you know what i thought? I think i was a little too harsh on my words from the last 2 entries. However i do mean what i say with no regrets, whether the outcome is good or bad. Right now i don't have anything else to say to you, got me a little speechless. It's funny how we communicate simply by making blog entries, i can't even call this communciation because it's soo bad. It's nothing more than mind games. I doubt if i called you out you wouldn't want to come out and talk it over anyway. I guess sometimes people are too stubborn for who they really are. It's aite cause i'm like that at times. =P Hopefully the situation doesn't get worse.

So in the summer most of you Lg's and Lb's are probably summer schooling or going on vacation. That's fine too because i'll be generating some income while you people are doing your own thang. Hope to chill with more of you peoples in july or maybe even august if i don't leave.

THat's it for now.

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Pretty fun after meeting up with the joe + *the dor and lor*. Went to metro LOLOL and then went to english bay --> stanley park. Pretty fun pretty fun, great way to start off the summer i'd say.
Relax while you still can. =)





















What's next?

Hey Hey Hey..

What's up? it's daddy's day, which is a good day. I don't know i was never really fond of this day because we'd all have to run out and buy something or "make" something thoughtful for em'. I could recall that back in elementary school, all we ever did was arts and crafts, perhaps " give your daddy a pet rock." HAH! Yeah all those good memories just brings it back today, and today i'm going to the bakery and buy him not a cake but some pineapple bun. It's his favorite so i hope he enjoys it as much as i do, too bad i can't bake fo' shit.

I mean don't mean to cause drama but this is some drama that's necessary and bound to happen anyhow:
I swear to god, you're just some drama seeking queen, honestly you haven't gotten the message yet. If you think i'm still immature and aiming for that "goal" then you got it wrong, because those weren't my intentions. You gotta get your priorities straight and stop thinking that every guy talking to you wants you. You know i'd tell you straight up but i'm guessing you're too "busy" with your "get-away" life, because i'm trying to be straight forward with you, but you're nothing like that. Indirect mofo..... What a joke. And didn't you clearly state " Say what you mean and mean what you say?" IF so, than don't go in a circle and just confront me personally. One more thing, what makes you think i'm over obsessive? What makes you think you're soo important? If you think that than you're wrong also, because that isn't the case. Man.... i don't even have a word to describe you right now. We done and outta here, see you around.

"If that boy don't love you right now, he will never ever never ever never ever love you..."

Sorry for the rants boys and girls.

The goodies:


heheehee yummeee


The best father in the world.






No not chicken nuggets but deep fried scallop









Wah-Lah, Transformed =D



"Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul, to a woman soooo heartlesss.."

untitled.

Currently i don't really have anything to blog about.
I'm happy that i got another job, it's called Tuttiemelon. They're not officially opened yet, but their location will be located on Alexandra Road, richmond (all the honger bubbletea/hotpot/chillout area). Pretty excited about that, but too bad it doesn't start until mid of July. HAAH i didn't tell them i might go away for army training in august. The thing is, i don't want to jew myself over by saying that because it might jeopordize the position they're giving me and i might end up not going to army camp, but i really want to because it's good money.

Lately i've been pretty bored, the usual. Haven't had plans in a while, because i didn't really have money to go out and spend. I finally realize how hard it is to make money and how easy it is to spend it all quickly. Hopefully we'll think of something to do soon, maybe some get together or w/e........ Playland soon? anyone?

Oh yeah and fml because i'm having a pimple break out again, shit... its alway's that same spot.

--EDIT
Okay i've been feeling up something lately. It's got to me and i have to say something, so id thought i'd say it here to the people who read up my blog occasionally. So what i hate most is when people can't be direct to you, but instead they go in a full circle telling other people and then it comes back to you and it feels kinda embarassing sometimes. In the end, why can't you be more direct and specific, this creates less drama and perhaps it's not as troublesome if you did this one on one. I hate you for doing this already... wow.... please don't be a dickface. And most definitely don't walk around with your swag, cause you ain't going nowhere.
Call me immature, whatever, i don't give a fly.




You can't go wrong with this...


I never wanna play again because i suck too much at this





Looks like we got Frozen Yogurt Competition eh... HAHA ..



I'd rock it if i were a girl ;) LOL!


So apparently i heard the shorts over tights were in....
Looks soo sexy



CALL ME LEEE TRAN.. LOLOL im cool.. sorta?


Before


After


Teh end.

=)

Mind fucked

Realistically speaking.... UVic Vs Langara.
I have all the reasons to say go to UVic, just because i'm chinese and that the fact it's an "university." Funny you may ask. UVic accepted me yay .. soo cool eh, but to be honest what the hell am i gonna do with psychology and sociology there? My goal is to do something with criminology perhaps SFU, but unfortunately i didn't get accepted because i'm not academically smart.
Langara on the other hand, it's much cheaper as you all know. At UVic i'd be paying an estimate of 15,000 a year. Yeah thats a lot, considering i'd only get 10,000 MAX from student loans, so i'd have to fork out 5,000 from own pocket. Doesn't seem like a lot but to me it is, and i'll probably be living from pay cheque to pay cheque, that's something you don't want to do.
So my biggest worry is that i can't transfer from Langara to UBC or SFU(depends what i really wanna do in 2yrs) and of course money is a huge factor to put into consideration.
And again you may also say, "you've basically answered your own questions." Yeah sorta, but it's still a hard decision, because i'm getting mind fucked hearing so many different opinions and options. Maybe if you were in my position you'd understand.
UVic seems kinda adventurous in a way, because you're gonna be living in a dorm, everybody is just like you, you're all in the same position. Yeah their parents are probably rich in some sort of way too, but in the end is it really worth it?
So for the rest of July i'll probably try to get some hours and look for another job and try to maximize my income =D. Money talks.

Sigh i wish was richer and smarter that way i'd rule the world.
Or i could marry a rich girl and never have to work again.. ^_^

Now.. here are my daily snaps!

Hardcore-ing for em' provincials

Alrighties, so currently i am taking a break from "studying."
Still thinking if i should take the provincial, to be honest i don't think i should take it, because one, i'm sooooo lazy, second i don't i'll do any better then my class mark so there's no reason to do it, and third i don't need it. SO why should i take the provincial, because my daddy wants me to.
I'm bored sauce right now.

WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE HOW MAD I AM RIGHT NOW. CLICK TO ENLARGE AND YOU WILL FEEL MY PAIN WITHIN. actually no, you would just feel sorry for me ... you probably got in already
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I thought about it again, to make one last run for university. The possibilities are to study hardcore for history and hopefully get a higher mark and for chem to rape it so hard that it'll dramatically boost me up by 10% (which i highly doubt to be realistic). Along with chem, i'll probably get a tutor to teach me the stuff so i can ace it. Because all in all Langara sounds kinda degrading to an asian family. So i need suggestions, hardcore for chemistry and hope to earn a better mark with a help from a tutor, or face the fact that i can't get into university and go to langara for 2yrs and just drop all this provincial non-sense

EDIT---
Yay. Now do i really wanna go that far?
nah..



Leon Cheng OUTS!

"Let me Roc with you."

You know i was once this little boy who'd NEVER EVER spend money, maybe the occasional trip to the candy store, and if anything was over a dollar i wouldn't lay my eyes on it. It's so fucked because i'm the opposite now. Anything i'd seee and like i'd cop, and that's of course at a reasonable price. I'm officially fucking broke now. It pisses me off sometimes of how i look back at myself when i spend money on things i don't even need, which is also called "IMPULSE BUYING." Impulse spending comes at a cost. From now i'll probably just find a cheaper alternative to "chill out" rather than go to the mall or downtown or whatever even if i don't buy anything i'd probably spend some money on food and what nots.

And again, i read my horoscope lately. It told me to "say what i mean and mean what i say." I'm about to do so, so if i offend any of you motherfuckers, let me know and i'll try to keep it at a minimum.

So today, i went to the Philipino Independent Festival at 29th station. It's pretty cool.















*Chillz OUt*



ANIME CONVENTIONHAHAHA WOWOWOWO



AINT I JUST GETTING BETTER AT THIS?



And i'm probably gonna sell these kicks because i'm soo broke, i wish i could keep you much longer but, they have to go to a better home.
Nike dunk sb Hunters sz10.5
worn 5x 98% stars
comes with box only, no extra laces
Looking for about $180?
Get at me if interested or know of interest. SERIOUS INQUIRIES ONLY. THANKS
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AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATHLEENIEEEE
hope we chill sooooon la.


LC OUTZ.

Hey Bitches

Alright. Let's get it started in here.
So i'm not going to army camp in july. I am absolutely pisssleddd off that it's cancelled.
There goes all my setbacks. Yanno, i'm at boiling point right now because all this time i thought i was 100% on the course, but instead they cancel the whole friggin' thing. Not cool. Could of gottten another job by now, could of probably sign up for summer school, could of done a lot of other shit. FUCK MY LIFE.

Another thing to bring up is, the amount of times you call me in a day. Holy fuck, first off are you fucking gay? No homo dude, you're cool and all sometimes but you're so fucking annoying, you're not my girlfriend so stop fucking calling me, and no i'm not bored like you homo. I really think i should get the "unlimited incoming" calls for my phone now. You're pathetic man, i hope you're reading this too because you really should stop calling.. Bitchnizz get out.

I am mad sauce.


I like these.. you're soo sexy



LOOK AT EM'. I finally brought em' home after locker clean out. THey've been in my locker since forever. I can finally rock em soon.


Sometimes i think you're the only light to the darkness in my life....
=)



You gotta eat this shit man. It's soo damn good.

Im Out for now.

PS. ANd yes stop calling me i hate you so fucking much for calling me every single day. SOmetimes i question myself if i'm gay because i entertain you for picking up and talking for long hours. I hate my life. You know who you are, you fucking jackass..