I know a place we can go.

So it turns out that this weekend was another "fail" not just an ordinary "fail" but an epic 0ne. Literally did nothing this weekend other then my "fucking around" session at downtown with Mon.
It was pretty fun, too bad i was 30mins late for ninja assasin and ended up doing nothing but taking a shit load of pictures. I can't wait until next week... Army Dinner and free booze with the guyz.
As for school, i really dont give 2 shits about it anymore, i give up this term, gonna stop doing all the remaining assignments.

Desperate times calls for desperate measures.

Here i am, blogging again, i believe it's my second blog of the day. I'm really happy that i've reached more than 500 hits this month, i didn't really know it would get this fun.
Cut to the chase. So this last Tuesday, i went to go see Disney On Ice, with Margaret, April and William, its funny Margaret texted me randomly asking me if i wanted to go see Disney On Ice, out of all the people she could of asked, she picked me. Stunning eh? I guess when things become kind of stale within your "everyday" group of friends, you want to taste something new, something different. Yay for me, at least.
So, i'm here to cry once again about how much life sucks. It's a never ending situation for me, i don't know why, but it's just me. So i think this is it. This is for real. I think i'm moving. Yanno, when i heard that my parents might be selling the house, i was kinda "yay" at first, but than when i thought about it, i was like "what the hell, where we gonna live now?" Heck, i don't even know what is going on. It sucks, it really does. Even though i haven't exactly lived in this house for a very long time, i'm probably miss this place. This house has treated me well. I think i'mma live with my grandparents for the time being, sigh. If only i was rich, i would have the power to move out on my own. I hate this part right now.
This gives me another reason of why i should join reg force. It sounds nuts, but i'm for real guys.

I hope this weekend turns out to be fun, even though i'm working, Friday to Sunday, i hope something amazing happens. Something out of the ordinary.
This might be it, but i don't want it to end.

Aside from all this bullshit that's happening lately, class is about to end in a week and finals are just around the corner. It's so hard to focus, knowing that i'll have to move, this kinda stress is getting to me.

I honestly don't know where to begin, and how to start..

This is forreal, i don't know where to begin. I really want to go to Afghanistan, I really wanna get away from reality, and i really wanna get away from "YOU." You drive me nuts, i fucking hate you sometimes... You are the reason why my transcript looks like fucking jack shit. I don't know how to explain this feeling but you make me feel like shit sometimes, at times, degrading. Okay, so i'm not exactly 100% sure if i'm going to Afghanistan in 2011. The thing is, i don't know how to tell my parents. They're so asian. They're so irrogant. There's no other way to put it, i hate them. I can't tell them jack shit, like if i tell them i'm seeing a girl, they'd be flying all over the place telling my grandparents, uncles, aunts and so forth. I hate it. They make me angry, and if i ever get a "gun-to-take-home" i want to shoot them.
Seriously, Afghanistan, it looks like a scary place to be in right now, yah you know, the war between America and Afghanistan or whatever....... Like what the fuck? Why is Canada even in there? Yeah, peace keep my fucking ass, but anyway i still feel like going. I want some medals, i want to do something in life, something exciting, something out of the ordinary. It'd be so awesome coming home from Afghanistan with medals as a private, damn.............. I could only imagine. Should i get into regular force, and say "fuck you" to the reserves?
I am stoked already, are you?
It's a feeling i can't simply describe.

Fuck this. And fuck you.
Private Cheng is out.

Fuck you all.

Fuck you, ALL.
Going to fight the talibans in 2011, peace out bitches, wish me luck, wish that i don't get shot, wish that i won't loose a leg or an arm.

Thanks,
K bye now.

New moon, twilight, it's all the same shit.

As of late, i've been listening to a lot of slow jams, tryna take things slow. One of the songs that is stuck in my mind is, UMBRELLA accoustic version. Today, i got my English paper back, and i got a B-, this is the first "B" grade i've gotten in college, what a "level-up." Looking forward to the next 3 papers that i will be getting back very soon, hopefully i'll get a C+ for criminology, that one i put the most effort into writing it. As for the other few papers, they were sorta mediocre, not up to my fullest potential i would say.
This whole Twilight/New Moon shit is pretty awesome. I didn't know what all this TWILIGHT hype was, until New Moon came out, it made me want to watch New Moon, but in order to do that i had to watch twilight. So last night i decided to watch some twilight for the very first time and i have to say it was a decent movie, but fuck..... Edward Cullen is definitely not a stud, as everyone claims him to be one.
Today, my step mother told me that my father wasn't too well financially, at first i was like blah, you're just saying this shit. But than when i look at it at another perspective, we are certainly not doing too well, it's sad to say that my dad's company has downsized a lot, sigh....... I kinda pity him and i feel bad asking him to give me back the $400 he borrowed earlier this month.
"We use to be drinking sharp fin soup and eating abalone every other month, now we be eating McDonald's and Tim Horton every other day."












Private Cheng,
OUT

Goodluck?

Imma step my A game on, and give it one last try, show me what you have girrrr....
"go for the kill or go home."

And fuck you all for those that are gonna doubt me.
Yeah fuck you.

money on my minddddd and my mind over money.

Okay this is fucked up, i think i am sleep deprived, or whatever shit they call it.
I CANT SLEEEP FOR SHIT. =(

Oh yeah i found my wallet now, yay. so happy. k yay

Wish me luck.

Alright, so i got my upass back, yay. Attempting to get my Bank Card back tomorrow, with my passport only, HOPEFULLY i get it. And if i get it by tomorrow, new haircuts. Yay!
So that last few days has been pretty repetitive, wake up play counterstrike source, and than do some lame shit such as maybe study or maybe attempt to read or maybe workout. Nonetheless, i can't wait until wednesday is over, but fuck i don't really have a weekend, my weekend is occupied with work work work, friday saturday and sunday. So i've been deciding to get some new stuff lately, and i can't figure out what i really want right now, so i might just save my monies and keep looking for the "one." In the mean time, i'll make due with what i have.
AND again, wish me luck.

Fuck, who would of thought that a person that you trusted, and told all your secrets too, and even if you intended to friendzone her for whatever reasons could be gone for a few weeks. This is ultimate gayness right here, so you aren't that steezy after all and you're not that cute, okay i take that back you're "kinda" cute and your somewhat "steezy," sometimes cheesey. But it's all good, because you're just a friend right? Who am i to say all this bullshit, when i'm just a friend?
For fuck sakes, come home soon, we needa talk.

So recently, i've been also seeing a lot of random people. The ones that maybe were the "hi and bye" kinda deal, we are now sorta friends. It's weird. It really is. I guess this is where the "real" world begins, you see where your so-called "friends" are right now and than you see your hi and bye kinda friends that are somewhat your friends now, you compare the two, it ain't that much of a difference. Because some tell me " fuck the past, but don't fuck with the present." I think that is kinda self-explanatory, and yes i am still in my phase to finding out who's really "there" for me. As homo as that sounds, i am not fucking homo and no offense to the homos out there.
All in all, i find it really weird how it all works out, someone that was totally the opposite of what you would call "friend" in highschool, is now the your new hang out, its just something new and something i don't see or hear everyday.

Oh yeah, i apologize once again for those who have experienced my burst of anger, been cranky all day, lack of sleep + loosing my wallet = Angry Cheng.

ANGER MANAGEMENT OR WUTTT?

FUCK MY LIFE I LOST MY WALLET WITH THE FOLLOWING:
$1.5o
birth cert
care card
sin card
upass
student id
Drivers license
Debit Card
my free small fries from mcdix from monopoly game.
j2 $20 gift card
a cheque of $45X

Can life get any worse than this? FUCK MY LIFE SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT

FUCKKK
--Edit

Okay, i've come to realization that november is probably one of the shittiest months of the year. Why is it that? 1. Term paper month. 2. Shitty things happen such as loosing your shits randomly. 3. You tend to sleep in and never wake up for class, happen a couple times to me already. 4. Shitass things happen again, FUCK MY LIFEEEEEEEEEe ARGHHH. *End of Rant*

On the bright side, i got myself the Canon 50mm 1.8 Mark 2, lens for $80 on craigslist. Pretty happy about that, that's probably my only highlight for the week, and oh yeah i finally got my jeans in. Flathead's F310. I LOVE EM, soooo slick. Check the pictures out.





















Even my dog wants a piece of my new denimssss MUAHAHA...
K i'm still mad that i lost my wallet though.
Not fair.

What a day to remember.

If you want to read about my life, please read on, if not please close this window immediately.

Today is November 11, 2009, which means that it's Remembrance day. To be honest i actually really was looking forward to marching at Richmond City hall with my battalion. It's such a downer that i didn't this year, it's probably because my drill sucks balls and my master corporal didn't want me to go, but it's all good i had fun working in the kitchen too. Next year i'm gonna get my formal dress wear and i'mma perfect my drill like no mother fucker has done before. I'm fucking determined. Asides from that, drinking with army people was actually quite fun, when i was in Wainwright, Alberta, drinking with like 20 white guys and with like 2-3 asian guys was really fucked up, the conversations weren't there, the fun was just non-existence, it was shit. Well i kinda feel like shit right now because for the fact that i drank too early today, it wasn't a lot but it was a shot or two, with a few beers here and there, kinda ruined my day. That's that.
School, it's getting there. I'm getting more comfortable around different people, and that's a good thing. I remember when i first walked into Langara, my objective was to be a social machine and talk to anyone that was kinda decent looking, guys or girls(no homo). After a week or two of school, my objectives wasn't really to be a social machine, it was to study. Yeah, i sorta study but eh, i'm not studying smart, what a waste, when i got back my first test in College, man that just blew me away(in a bad way), i didn't expect to do that bad with all that studying. College is different, it's different from highschool, i didn't really take that into account until i finally realized that it wasn't a game. It was dead serious and no games were to be played, it's like playing counterstrike in highschool and than in college it's like an actual war, once you're dead, you're dead forever, you won't respawn once you die, there's no other way to put it. I'm disappointed with my first semester, hopefully second semester will treat me better. It's kinda sad too, i haven't really found a group of friends that i could chill with in college tother than the few random people, despite the fact that i see some of my highschool friends here and there, but eh i wanna move on and meet new people, and oh yeah the highschool friends weren't really considered friends anyway, they're the "Hi - and - Bye" sorta deal. And the friends in highschool that i chilled with last year, we kinda broke off, everyone's doing their own little thing, no one has ever really made an effort to call everyone for a gathering, at least not that i know of. Other than that, the day was pretty fun, haven't had this much fun in awhile, honestly.

I'm a happy man, for now at least. Summer girl Where are you?? Why are you so mean to me now? I fucking hate you for being such an ass, i must admit i was an ass when we were hanging out, but damn, don't take your anger out on me. So girl, tell me how you've been? Maybe we can chat when you're not so busy, k deal.

Peanut's okay. =)

So my dog, Peanut, fell on my weights last night when he tried jumping onto my bed but somehow he slipped. Kinda funny, but its sad because i just llost $100 taking him to the vet. It's okay he's kinda steezy and it's worth it. eI can't wait until Novmber ends, and than FINALS and than Winter Break. Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk..............................
I hate life, it's soo boring. Working at Tuttimelon is kinda steezy, the occasional hot girl that walks in WITH her boyfriend. =( Nonetheless, its still good, "yummy" eye candy. So today this chick, kinda eye fucked me for a bit, we made eye contact for probably about 3-4 seconds. <3 But too bad she's taken, man that guy is a stud for getting wit her, i'm jealous.
Well that's it for now, 1 more test to go and 1 more fucking hardass literary paper! FUCK MY LIFE.

the days ahead just doesn't get any better. =(

The title says it all. As averagejoe pointed out, this weekend was somewhat highly anticipated which ruined my mood for the past two days. I don't ever recall since grade 12 that i've actually had a decent weekend, just chilling, just working, just chasing, just playing. Most of my college weekends are usually wasted because if i don't have papers due the following monday most likely there is a test to study for or for the fact that i dick around all weekend and end up doing nothing productive at all. Quite similar to what i'm doing right now, instead of doing my discussion questions for english1127, i am updating my bloggggggggg.... Life right now is most definitely a blur to me. I am finding out more things about myself and in other words i am finding out my own identity. Vancouver suxs, i wanna move to SanFran or LA. =( Who's down to move? I think i've mentioned that Langara has a heap of hot white chicks, but fuck it's so hard to hold a conversation with them, the furthest i'll reach is probably first base, or not even. I might not even get to bat. Sigh..... I am so bad at this. My goal for the remaining 2009, get a gf for christmas. I am also kinda disappointed at the fact that i haven't gotten a lot of time to spend around my camera, i really need to start taking photographyseriously rather than letting the camera collect dust. For nao, let me get my game on once again.
School. Work. Money. Hypebeasting.








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