Matured or Maturing?

Alrighties...So today was grad breakfast. Was pretty fun, and you cant go wrong with $2, for the food you got. The best part of this breakfast was that we got our Grade8 Letters, HOWEVER LOL.... mine was a grade9 letter. I have no idea where my grade8 letter went but i'm positive i submitted it, not sure why i wrote a grade9 letter? It's hilarious, because my grammar was super intensely choppy, incomplete sentences everywhere, half the shit didnt even make sense. It's okay because i understood 100% what i wrote LOL, and it brings back those memories. Reminiscing the ol' times baby..

Sigh... the letter reminded me a lot, how i use to get decent grades, compared to my "two inch across the border" marks. Comes grade10 and thats when i became in denial, i thought i could pick myself up and bring those grades back up, turns out to be a disappointment.

Damn this year went by soooo quick. I remember back in grade8 i was thinking "damn, i'll be outta here in 5more years and then it's done!" Yeah, those days are come to an end.... I know after i graduate i can't use those lame YOYO MAMA SOOO FATT jokes anymore, and every so often listen to my ipod in class.

Funny how half the write up was about a girl whom i had a crush on. It goes by the lines of some corny shit: " Oh, she gives me all the happiness in the world..." LOL AHAHAH....

All in all, i can only say one thing, Disappointment. I never met personal expectations nor did i meet any expectations from my parents. Girls.. Hahahah.... I've failed even harder in this categorie! I can never seal the deal. And thinking upon my situtation, i've been pretty much the "nice guy" or what you can call a "step-over". Got ditched numerous times, a few no shows and many unreplied texts. I learned this the hard way, which was the good way.
Experiencing this, helped me realized everything i was doing was idiotic.
I wish i had game.....
I wish i could step up my game, but i don't even know how to do that anymore, i've been defeated too many times.

Currently i feel like tides are low.... and nothing can stop you from what you're doing. But whatever, this time i really tried. If it doesn't work, i can't do anything but to say "next". I loved every minute, every second of it and i won't regret this.

Even something so simple we failed on..... i dont know what went wrong.

"I miss you" (By Jason Chan) reminds me of you, but only to a certain extent. =P LOL.
Haven't met you that long, but it feels like i've known you forever, girl...

I remember i wrote this back in November:

I WANNA TAKE IT SLOW......
Baby, why you movin' so fast
perhaps that was just the past
i've been at home missing you
the boys over there was dissing me
girl you're always out and drinking
that just got me thinking
why you at parties
i wish i could call you my shortiee..
but girl imma stay strong
i hope i didn't get this wrong
when we getting into fights
i knew you were right
i just wanna know you're that fine
its something about you that i can't define.

...Classic....

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TOMORROW! Tomorrow, i'm finally going back to ARMY night, missed out 3 weeks of attendance. And mcdonalds finally going back to chilll been months.. Kinda miss theese places. Mcdonalds has really become my second home, ironic enough to say because i barely work.

Saturday, aprils' bday dinner, dont even know what to get her yet... Shet. And i need to go Tie Shopping at LeChateau.
Who's down?! =D


Rain in Spain,
Peace in the Middle East.

Sometimes...

Sometimes i wish i knew what you were thinking.........
Sometimes i wish things were easier........
Sometimes i wish i could be in the same league .....
Sometimes i wish i didnt blow my chances
Sometimes i wish i took more risk
Sometimes i wish i didn't have to think twiceee
Sometimes i wish i could be pwnage...
Sometimes i wish i was better at Dota, i still suck
Sometimes i wish i wasn't a noob
Sometimes i wish i was better with them chickz
Sometimes i wish i had better jokes LOLOL
Sometimes i wish i can just level up and be a pro sauce.


Sometimes.......

"How Do you Sleep?"

"Heel my heart... heallll my pain..."

I really want to show you i'm not like any other kid out there, i want to be different i want to stand out. And i will...
If things dont go the way i(we) want it to, then i guess we weren't ment to be. It's okay LA... ^_^ V

Changed the picture, it really reflects upon my situation. Charmander will evole at level 16. I hope i level up too.... sigh.

Sigh, i've had my phone for about 2 years now, and within these 2 years i've taken probably close to 1500 pictures with it. Now my memory card is full. Peace.
A few that i really liked:

HAHA i missed my hair when it was actually "long"...
sigh...


AHAHA BEE BEE has a new Gangsta jacket....
sigh.. i remember the days that he was still a puppy...


After nearly 2 years im still sticking around mcdonalds, and yes i still work there.
Sometimes it gets really really boring, but when im working with people within my age range i found it really chill and fun. HAHA throwing food at each other in the back ^_^ V


This was about a year ago LOLOL HAHA!
beeing Ghetto.


I just like this pose, i dont know why =P



Shet boy, i miss this hair cut so much. One of my favorites.
I regret joining the army now. I have to maintain a short hair style..


Oh Jeez AHHA JXW and I pimping it out with our shades! LOLOL
FUNNIES!


Grad write up, sigh...... i still remember what i wrote clearly.... YOu'll seee what i wrote when we get our year book.


Sexy Leon HAHAHA ^_^ V.... funny

Obviously press "OK".
Don't think twice about that either.
K thx.


My beloved cousin, whom i grew up with......
HAHA... back in grade 2 when i lived with her i used to always get into fights with her =P LOL


SLow Down... sometimes i wish things can just slow down. It's going too fast lately.


Damn, i really enjoy just fucking around at coffee shops with wifi, or anywhere with free wifi in general. It's a new hobbie just chilling, whether it's with a friend or even by myself.
When im by myself i usually reflect on my day and just chill and surf the net.


Holy shit. Next time i come back i better not loose my ipod again, and i better own up the slopes! ROARRRRRR


Fuck........ my sister(she's 1 year younger) passed and i failed. such a good day for me..


muahaha baby bother forced to take pics pics.


Yesterday found this at some anime store. HAHAA guess what this is. =)


HOLYSHIT UGGS ARE SOO COMFY.
SHIET BOY. It's like "i'm stepping on my dog while walking.."
LOLOL "Are uggs made out of sheep fur?" LOL AHAHAHHAHA
;)


Dayum.... what a picture filled post........

Enjoy.

Lc21 out.

Where's the love?

Rather boring post .... just reflecting on my day.
The usual, again.. LOL!

Went to downtown today with the kattherleen
" sorry for no 7.30 call."


I saw this today, and i wowed by how cute it looks.
No Homo.


Went to gastown and one of those shoe shops had this GIGANTIC mirror, looked soo coool......



My Roffle Cone. Best shit ever.


After going to downtown then to metro to hang around....
Didn't feel like going home so i went for a joy ride and got off at mainstreet.
Went to mcdixs, and thought the city lights looked pretty nice. And the skytrain was loaded with Canuckersss..... YEE YEE 2-0 Lead right now for CANUCKS YEEEE...

Anyway................. Today i felt like i failed.
I Don't know exactly how to put this into words but i felt like i let some people down today.
And i've come to conclusion to about 60% i wont be going to prom, personal reasons.

Today felt like a really long day, but overall it was fun. And i mean it Katherleeen.. LOL =P

Finally its friday again, the week went by really really quickly and next week i'll be working again, finaly at last? Haven't been to army parade night for 3weeks straight wowzers, and mcdix, who knows how long... 2months maybe?

Being the same ol' leon again. I guess it's healthier this way. Fuck the game.

Coming to think about it, i have 2.5months before im out of vancouver... Sigh... i hope things will be changed for good. And fuck university or whatever. University isn't for everybody....... and i really believe that i'm part of that "everybody".
fml

Lc21 outz.

It ain't here anymore...

Today will be another emo sounding blog entry.

First i would like to say WHAT THE FUCK is wrong lately?

Today felt like it was one of the most abnormal days of my life.
Nothing felt it was going the way i wanted it to be.
I couldn't think straight today, and in PE class during a game of tackle football someone threw me the ball when i wasn't looking and it hit my nose, and it got all bloody.
Another thing that was ghetto-ass fucked up was when i went to the community center(it's right beside the school) to clean up my bloody nose, i walk into the washroom. A muscular white guy comes outta the shower with his DONG hanging around and it was literally doing meat spins. My face was soo WTFed when i first saw it. FYI, i wasn't tryna to look at it but he was walking around naked without a towel covering it.

Fucked up eh? FML?

It's funny how i can talk to strangers that i barely know and tell them everything, but people that are considered friends i have a hard time telling them anything now...It doesn't flow anymore......................

Sorry, i didnt mean to be a drama queen.......KING*



CHARMANDER =D
Something to enlighten my day....
PRoject Number One


Time to paint it...

To be continued.


Grad lounge today was mediocre, you can't ask for much for $3.
Just a bunch of camwhores, and there was entertainment... the usuall.. =)

Team Tough COokie OUtZ

"But i won't hesitate no more... "

"It.. can not wait.. i'm yours........."

Recently i've been asking myself do i really want to connect with her?
Do i really want to see myself fail again?
Do i really have self-doubt?
Can i over come my fears and face the evil "monsters"?

Sigh.... What is that i dont understand about girls?

ALl the above, i must ask myself the ultimate question.....
And all of this, i don't ask for sympathy....... I'm asking for your help.

I look upon my sister's situation, both of them. I realize that they're both "throwing their love away." Both of their love relationships lasted longer than a year.... I just don't quite get why people break up sometimes........ Whilst i'm sitting around seeking for some companionship. So.. "Where is the love?"

Summer lover, "where did you go?" Seems like awhile now, now that you're with someone else it feels that your life revolves only around him. Nonetheless i still feel happy for you, it was a feeling i couldn't get over because the fact that i never told you ____.
Now that it's spring, summer is coming around the corner........ hopefully i'll see you around.

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Aside from all this girl shit lately, prom is coming up in about 3 weeks. I'm not even stoked for it. I Don't even know why, this year feels soo gloomy. And Grad Lounge is tomorrow night, hopefully that will change the atmosphere of my mood right now.
It feels like January all over again........ Tryna identify myself of who i really am...
Why is it that every spring come's a girl but there's nothing that we can relate to in the end..
Mating season?

I still lack confidence.... sigh
Currently i have nothing to look forward too because i know this year i won't have a summer, going off to training camp for 2 whole months..


"I walk on this lonely road.. on the boulevard of broken dreams..."

Lc21 OUtz

She might be over my head

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Today was a fun day. Got all that shits off my mind......
went to Plenty sale in the morning at 9:20 today got there by 9:40 budged in front of line with RonRon, the line up was soo stupid...... oh my god makes me mad x10102312321321312.........
Then gots the hair cut then gots to chill with thee ian and the joejoe. LOL!

Fuck plenty sale, angers me too much to take a blog pic of the line up anyway..
Went to mcdonalds right after...... good shits..


GET SET ... GO!


VROOMVROOm, you see me ROLLING ..... fun times


THAT IS SOO CUTE BUT IT's $22.99.. kinda expensive


Went to mcdonalds agan case i was hungry =D HAHA


Before the haircut.....
Won't take pics of the new haircut.. gurantee you'll like it;) Super satisfied.


YEE DRINK UP BOYZZ......
Pretty fun, gotta do it again.



LAST BUT NOT LEASE THEE FIT PICS FROM THE LAST FEW DAYS

yeee my fav washed jeansss


And today... kinda sloppy because i woke up late for the lineup, nonetheless a satisfiying day.

LC21z out...

PS. damn you're soo cute ..