Turn your lights down low...

Currently back to basics....

" If my coffeee was that bitter, i'm sure you can help me sweeten it up, because it ain't just the sugar and the cream anymore.."

If you gave me the chance to apologize, i might just take it, that's if you're "aite" with it.

And i'm leaving, but i'm home again.

I felt that once i left for army that things would be different once i got back, but why does it feel the same again, i think i should of stayed for another month, that way i can escape the world of dramas. After all it aint that simple, it's not just a stop and play button.
Now that i got back, and i'm broke-er than ever. You'd be thinking " didn't you just get back, you should have a lot of money by now." Yeah fuck i should be but somehow it got screwed up so i have like $30 left in my account.
I was worried that wouldn't be able to get back because i had like $10 dollars in my account, literally. So i told my dad to deposit some money the day before i got to the airport, that way i would have money to pay for the extra luggage fee. <3 S'all good.

Next... if you think about it summer's almost done, with the fore play at the pause button, and resume the next.. Man.

BMQ, what an unforgettable experience, i believe that i am mentally stronger, not so much physical, this course had very little physical training to be honest. Graduation was sooo fucking whack, the Major just had a 30 second speech and it was "attention" followed by "dismiss. " Pathetic, if you asked me. But whatevers, i'm glad to say that 60 out of 62 people graduated. BMQ 0799 YEE YEEE
Oh yeah, lets talk about girls. I have a huge crush on white girls. The girl that was on the same flight as me, god.... And the flight attendant was even better. "she winked at me not once but TWICE." I melted, i couldn't even talk properly. That's that.

And to top it off with my favorite quote, " UNFUCK YOURSELF CHENG!!" - Sgt. Furness, god that still makes me laugh.

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I wish i could take my words back sometimes, i felt like i was speaking with my dick this entire time. Can we "chill " again?

Pics to come shortly.

Graduation in a week.

Graduating BMQ in 1 week, damn girl.
I feel like i'm on top of the world, survived BMQ in Wainwright, pretty happy about that. Too bad i'm not finishing SQ this summer or i would of been loaded with money.
All the hardwork finally paid off and i got this weekend off as well. The whole time scrubbing the floor tiles until they shined, shining boots till we can see our reflections, and washing the washroom till there wasn't a spec of dust. The biggest thing i've learned so far was teamwork. No matter how much i hated the people in my section, i still had to put up with them to make it work and definitely no fighting or that'd be instant RTU, in other words kicked out instantly.

Man.... i feel homo at times, showering with 8 other guys at the same time and running around naked was definitely an awkward experience. And the girls in our shacks are probably considered the hottest girls, because we barely see girls outside of army life. If you ask me if i wanted to go to to Afghanistan, i would probably not go. I didn't that mentality going into army camp. "Half of me was there and the other half of me wasn't there.."
What i hated most was, being rushed, it's so hard to take your time and do everything correctly. The "shitters" was probably the only time i could relaxed when we'd have free time.
I've found a new craving, Prime time is something that keeps me stress free, but don't worry planning to quit once i get back home.

That's all i have to say for now, Peace.

Private Cheng, Roger Out.

Some pictures to come in a little bit....

Edmonton..

Alright so i'm just doing another update from Best Western Inn in Edmonton....

Finally a real day to just relax and shop at WEST EDMONTON MALL.
To be honest its pretty disappointing. I'm kinda pissed that i got so little. And they say it's the biggest mall in the world. Wow what a joke, the waterpark is pretty good. It's an okay mall, but not too much shopping there.
About to go head out and just grab a few beers and come back and relax. For those that are going to strip clubs and bars, have fun and dont get hammer cause we gotta get the fuck out asap tomorrow morning.

Anyhow, army trainings about half way done for this course. I'm thinking about staying for another month or so, so i can finish up Soldier qualification. Kinda lame but meh, but i have too much on my mind right now, i wanna go home and just relax. Waking up at 5.30 everyday is sooo gay and we have to do Physical training right in the morning, 10minutes to get ready.
LAME SAUCE.

I hate school, i have to pay my tuitions on august 17, and SQ wont be done until early september. So FML. dilemmas.

And wow, haven't spoke to you in a while, felt like it's been forever. mannnn where did you go?

Back in 2

Guys whats up?
Back in 2 weeks.... I'm getting limited internet time. Tomorrow's heading to west edmonton mall with a few army bud's. Hopefully it'll be worth it because i have like 200 left in my account and i haven't gotten paid yet.
I'm soo happy i have my weekend off...

More to come..

Man-ing up in the process..

Private Cheng OUT

And i'm leaving...

My departures tomorrow but i dont think anyone really cares to be honest. Whatever, i hope i'm ready for this, i've been waiting all year long just to make this happen, and now it's finally going to happen. I'm about 90% packed up, i hope i don't forget anything, because i'd get ass fucked if i miss anything. I think my parents are worried about me leaving for a month, i was carefree until as of present, 9:12pm, just about 11hours before my flight takes off. What worries me most is how i'll get there because i have to go get to Edmonton Airport, take a taxi to greyhound in downtown. From Greyhound i have to sit in the greyhound for 3hours and than i'll arrive in a small town called wainwright, and than ANOTHER taxi to my base. I'm scared already because i'm all on my own and all the expenses i have to pay for them, but the government will reimburse me. It's funny, my dad's like take $200 cash with you, you're gonna need it, and then we'll put another $100 into your bank accoutn so you can use debit if you really need it. I told him, no it's okay i have enough, so when i just got home i checked my online banking and before i added that $100, i had $9.68. That would be really assed fucked.


Tonight i had my last home cooked meal, it might be another month until i actually eat my grandma's cooking again. As for love, i'll put that aside, maybe think about it when i can't sleep at camp and try to fix the mistakes from the past. On the plane tomorrow at 8:00am, i'll probably look at the pictures i took with my dslr from my ipod and think about the good times that will only come so soon. 1 month baby.. 1 month.

Today has hit me pretty hard, i'm sure everyone's really proud of me going, but the thing is, can i finish the course without getting kicked out? This process is to test my balls and it will definitely "man-me-up" and yes i will come back walking around with that swag'.
You guys better prey that i don't come home until atleast August 1st. (Duration of the course is from July 2nd - August 1st).
Remember to write me emails, leave me voice messages, and of course mail me cash..
I thought of another way to communicate with you guys, if you guys wanna hear how i'm doing.. i'll probably be updating my voicemail greetings

D89 151 650 PTE CHENG
BMQ 0799 B039/08
Land Force Western Area Training Centre
Wainwright Denwood AB T0B 1B0

So guys......... this is it. No computers, no cellphones, no mp3's. It's just hardcore intensive training. WAIT actually i might bring my laptop =).



This ain't the last of me.

But i'm outs!

peace out on the first

ALright brothers and sisters. I'm officially leaving on July 1st 8:00am taking the westjet( if you're taking the same flight LET ME KNOW =D) and then taking the ground hound at Edmonton to Wainsright. SO if you miss me write to me or leave me voicemail messages!!!
Oh yeah and don't forget about me. You'll see a new and improved me when i'm back. Looking forward to those days already. For now, i'm not sure when i'll be back, but i will be back.

Let's make the best of the last 2 days i'm going to be here for.


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Aite so today was a pretty good day. Chilled with mae and then joe and friends after. Relaxing day, the usual. It's going down pretty well for me just livin' life, i love how it's soo carefree right now and yeah i'm stoked about going to college too, but eh the way it's going down right now it's kinda weird. You know how they say only the good friends stick around, wow i don't even who's considered good anymore. It's weird, i knew some weren't gonna stick around for sure, but damn i already feel excluded from a lot of the stuff that's going on. Time to make a few new friends at College i guess. Thanks for those who came out today to say a goodbye, whether it'd be a month or two for me.

For army, i dont even know what i got myself into. I just got a buzz cut, it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be but meh. I hate how i have to go away. You know that feelin' when you're gone for a certain period of time and then you feel kinda left out when you're back because you're not updated with the things going around. Not cool.
I'm guessing 3/4 you people don't know i'm leaving. S'all good. I have one more day of luxury, and the next 30 days are gonna be hell. So tomorrow imma just sit at home and relax one last final day, and gather my thoughts. It ain't just a physical game.
I fear no evil.

Sigh, sometimes i wish on that day we could of just sit and talk it out. It bothers me even more when i think about it. But why do i care if you don't?

This is a sadassssss movie, Marley and Me...
I swear if you watch it, you'll cry like a baby. I did.
" If you give a dog your heart, he'll give you his"





Peace and love.

Private Cheng, Outs.