fuck it.

I know i'm not the greatest kid in the world and i try to make my dad proud once in a while.
There was never a day like that since the divorce, why did we end up like this with such remorse.
I thought we could never see tomorrow, there's nothing left but sorrow.
I remember the times back when we had a great bond, now you're always talking about what you're not fond of.
Please don't give me that shit, if you do why don't you just throw me in the pit.
Fuck you too, i hate you times three, i have nothing left to to say at four.

Fire.

So things have been running through my head recently, and it revolves around my spendings. I've mentioned this before but i think i am overspending on a lot of things, but i haven't had any regrets so far. Everything's going great lately, and i can't wait till friday, because we're probably gonna go to deadmau5's concert which is fucking sick. To be honest, i don't think i'm going because i'm a hardcore fan of deadmau5's, it's because i'm a fan of the hype that revolves a certain event or release. I'm sure many of you people are going because of the "hyped" up environment and crowd, not really because of his work that he puts out. Anyhow, i need some portable chairs and my Nintendo DS lite, hope to see some of you shit faces there.

Here are a few new pickups, don't ask where i got em' and how much, because i won't tell you, all you have to know is that, it burned a hole in my pocket.

Dopeness.

So valentine day was dope. I hope everything went well for all of you single guys out there, that's still tryna get the girl. It's quite surprising when you hear a brother with a twisted love story, a story that you would never think that could be so surreal. It kinda sucks to hear that he's not with a girl whom he thought he had a chance with, and it sucks even more when you find out that she's going out with another guy within our circle of friends. This is mad twisted, when they say "you snooze, you loose," you gotta listen to them. You can't blame anyone but yourself for your own mistakes...

ON a brighter note, i gotta cut down on spendings, i've been overspending on a lot of things, mostly on food though and random shit that i buy which i don't really need. I sometimes hate it when i have money, and i feel invincible when i have a chunk of money in my bank account. I'll be laughing when i pay off my student loan.

Anyhow, valentine was dope as mentioned above, and i'm glad she liked the card i gave her. Let's be real, i think you're fucking awesome, and i think i'm kinda awesome too, damn we have so much in common. LOL

"i loved how reading that card 5 mins ago even though i was so tired made me smile so big ♥ .."

Wishlist
- Supreme red/red box logo pullover
- Supreme OG white/red box logo tee
- Supreme LV blk/blk box logo tee
- Supreme mickie mouse pullover
- Supreme hanes pocket tee
- Jordan 5 fire reds
- Dickies Grey or Blk chinos w/ 1inch taper from Albert's Tailoring
- Supreme Oxford longsleeve
- Levi's Vintage Clothing 1947' Saddleman
- Skulls 5010xx 6x6
- Nice fitted V-necks
- Some sexy beach beaterssss, perhaps supreme.
- Chicago Bulls Michael Jordan 23 jersey

Wishlist COMPLETE

Done.

feeling up a whole lot.

The past few months has been awesome to an extent that i can't really explain. I'm sure you all know this feeling. Thanks for giving me a reason to believe. Thanks for believing in me. Thanks for being awesome with a bit of 'steezy swaggar'. Thanks for those 'mature discussions'. I am fucking thankful, even though it's not thanksgiving anymore.Thanks, thanks for everything, b.


You the best.

Private Cheng OUTSIDE MUDAFUCKA

So uhm, fuck my life.

Okay today, i wore my fire red 3's out and i come home and cleaned the, and i found out that they cracked around the heal. FUCK, not satisfied with how Jordan's construct their shoes nowadays. I remember when i rock jordan 6's when i was a toddler, too bad i gave those away, they were OG 6's too.

Anyhow, went to school today and did my usual shit, and than went to do some gay shit with mae and lourdez at downtown. I picked up some vans authentic for $10, probably wear these as beaters. Thinking of steezy fits for the next few days, fuck i hate how some things don't go so well together, even though if the colors work well, proportionate is the key when it comes to swag. If one piece is baggier than the other, it'll look sloppy, and you will result in some Leon Swagteam Cheng bashin' and obviously some "neg rep." Lastly, do not overmatch with colors please, yes we understand that some flipinos go crazy with the whole color scheme thing, it looks tacky and it looks stupid sometimes, don't do it, keep it clean. I'm gonna try to make my jordans work with my wardrobe, as some would say, "make [do] with what you have."

Uncalled for.

So today i found out that i have my criminology - intro to policing midterm tomorrow morning, quite funny eh? I guess most of this stuff should be review, however i plan on not getting too many hours of sleep tonight, gonna try to ace the midterm like i did on the first test. If i do, i'll be on a roll.
Asides from this, i really have nothing to talk about, and i'm quite excited about the olympic break, i have 2 weeks off, and i can do whatever the fuck i want. I'll most likely get back in shape and start working out, "NO BULLSHIT REPS."

Anyway this kinda made my day, "He's smooth and you have stubbles." HAHHA, you probably won't understand it, it's an inside joke. But dam, i find it quite funny.

It takes days, weeks, months and possibly years to build trust, but it takes only a second to break it. This is why i'm gonna be truthful to myself and towards you and yo family. "It's about us, it's about trust babe..."

Out.

Oh man, what a day.

So currently i've found happiness, and nothing ain't gonna stop me from getting back into my emo phase again. I've realized that the most stupidest things bring me down, and it affects everyone around me. I'll admit it, i'm sort of a drama king now that i think about it, but i'll try to improve on things i'm bad at, such as beating kim jong at hang man and budokai, beating monikha easily at budokai without even trying, and many more to come. These few weeks has been really chill so to speak, but as the days progress i feel like there's something missing every single day, i don't know what it is, i'm bound to find out. However, i'm already happy with what i have and what i need, and like she said, "there's no need to worry, baby i'm right here with you." And again, i'm getting my groove back and getting on top of the game, i don't know if that's a good thing right now but it has to be done. Shits on the next level.

Enough of this, so here's the breakdown of my day:
- went to meet up with monica aka ms.heeet to go shopping around robson and gastown, good cops for both of us, satisfied to the max, SO WHO SAID MONEY CAN'T BUY HAPPINESS? Well for me it can!
- after shopping, went to go chill with andrew, m'allfuckas gonna be copping em' supra skytops or whatever you call them, just cause lupe fiasco and lil wayne wore em. Nigguhz please, don't be bitin' son!
- After dat, went to go drink some BABBLE TEE with andrew's co-worker, shits mad hilarious! HAHA! "Hey Gloria, Andrew you see the white guy behind you, he's not gonna get a 2nd date." LMAO AHHAHAHA. Fist pumped.
That's it for now... Can't wait till valentine because it's also chinese new years, so you know what that means... PAY DAY LOL

And here are some pictures from yesterday.....