Those days... Those Memories...

So i finally got my Blood Donor card, and i found out that i have O+ blood type. I'm looking forward to donating more blood in a couple weeks, not because i get free cookies and juice but because i feel like i'm giving something back to the world. So before i leave for Alberta and get my tattoo, my goal is to donate some blood, who's down to donate some blood?




Looking back, i don't know if we'll ever be friends again. It's something i cannot explain. What can i do? I tried my best to ties things up, things may never be the same, and it might be better off this way. I never asked for anything in return, no rewards, no cookies, no brownie points, i just wanted to make you feel special. I guess you can call it exclusive, if you will. I'm entirely satisfied with whatever i have right now. "Thanks for everything."

It's June the 1st, and i'm off to a brand new start. I'm "up" after being "down" for so long.

Poser101

So my younger sister's graduation is around the corner, and as days go by i still reminisce those highschool days. Sometimes those flashbacks brings us those good memories that we cherish and it seems like its been forever since i graduated, which was almost exactly a year ago. A lot of things changed, it seems like i never talk to my highschool friends anymore. I don't know what happened but ever since graduation, i never really kept in touch with any of them, even those so-called "bestfriends" had their own lives and was too busy with themselves. This weekend has almost come to a conclusion, despite the fact that it was a sober week, everything went accordingly. Things are now different, and i'm on the lookout again.

Reflection

Through the days that we met, i've noticed one single thing. That smirk. That smirk felt so real yet it was so fake from behind. That smirk was like an A-grade Louis Vuitton Fakie. I realized that, no matter how much shit goes down, your family will always be your family. Even if its from the help of a slap to the face or whatever that goes along those lines. I hate being fake, it's not in my dictionary. I try to be as real as things can be, i speak my mind and if people don't appreciate it, then by all means go ahead and tell me that i'm a retard or an idiot. I wish that sometimes people weren't so stuck up and really mean what that say, because in the end you can smell a lie even if its miles away. I'm going to be real with you, i didn't do all this because i wanted something back in return, i did it because it was in our best interest to not have that drama. So for those that know what i'm tryna interpret, i hope you all understand where i'm coming from.
Call me the bad guy, i'll take all the blame, but please, don't lie to yourself. Believe what you see with your own eyes, although you may be influenced by what you hear from others, take caution.

You're going to want to drink up, smoke up, do all sorts of things to take this pain away, but realize that you did this to yourself. Maybe go cry me a river and i'll maybe show some sympathy.

I'm done my time here, moving on and letting the past stay in the past. Deleted.

Leon.

Swagteam Photo Shooting Session.

Alright I'm to get back into photography and i need some suggestions and ideas for the Photo shoot. I'm thinking of somewhere along downtown, maybe Blood Alley or some park/alley/parking lot. Looking to do this in maybe August, so let me know what you all want to do, and give me some dates, so i can work around people's schedules. This will be fun guys.

"Let the good times roll'. "

And one more thing, rock that heat, bring your A game ya'll. Most importantly, rock it with swag please.

Sooner or later.

Sooner or later, we will get hurt. Hurt by those people who we thought would have our backs and help us through the rough patches down the road. People that we thought were "family"that comes and breaks down our barrier. I call this reality. I finally believe that sometimes our best-friends will be our worse enemy. The people that you put so much trust in and so much time to develop that relationship, becomes so hostile. I learned not to believe and trust people so easily anymore, it's best if we all see it within our own eyes first. I'm completely not in sync the last few days, things are starting to bother me, people are not being real and it's not fair. Please don't give me the bullshit of "life is not fair." I've heard that a billionaire times. Maybe if we didn't have such a high expectation then we wouldn't end up with such a big disappointment.


And in regards to my "emo" blog entries and status updates, if you don't like it, ignore it. No one is asking for you to sympathize me, and i'm not either. So don't come up to me and tell me all this bullshit about how emo i look and i'm asking for people's sympathy. I'm writing about how i feel and what my mind speaks. And again if you don't like it, then fuck off. Easy as 1,2,3. I'm not gonna write about anymore of that shit, saying how much i miss you and all that homo/emo shit. As one would say "just act like you don't even care," it's for the best.

Talk all the shit you want, I don't care anyway.
I'm done.

OUT

"We've been together now and girl it's been awhile
Ain't seen that smile on your face
Tell me what could it be, cause I know that it ain't me
Could something be in the way
I feel like losin' it
Straight up callin' it quits.. I wish I can, but I can't
Cause something's telling me without you I won't be half the man that I was... "

SIgh.

Sigh.. why did i have to found out.. i knew it all along.

I don't know how i should feel right now. Sad? Mad? Frustrated? Upset? Content? Happy? Grateful? Regretful? Disappointed?

There's so many things running through my head, i can't sleep, i see the inner goods in you, but yet you still broke that very last hope in me. I don't know what to even say or who to speak to. Friends are there to look out for you, to tell you what's going on, honestly i feel really betrayed.

You always see a way to break me free from my cage, a cage that is so strong that only your love can break through. This cage is a complete disaster until the very end, no one can see how it will it end up, but hopefully we'll see only the positive attributes of it. This cage may completely tear you up, or can make you a stronger, a better person. We all pay a price for the lessons we learn, whether its through spending money, seeing the differences between fake and real and/or experiencing everything without a whisper through the lips of a friend. All in all remember this, "You can loose money chasing bitches but you can't loose bitches chasing money."

I've completely learn this life felt lesson through the hard way, time to start thinking ahead and make better decisions. First off, figure out what you want, then chase those goals and dreams.


Private cheng is out.