Emo State of Mind

One day, maybe one day, we can fly away together and leave this world filled with shit. It is so true when i say that all the bad things happen all at once. Words can't describe what i feel like right now. It's been so long that you've left me, lately i've been thinking about how you could make this world a better place for me, trying to tell you how much i miss you, but i don't think i can, at least not anymore. I wish you were there to see me graduate, to guide me through my days, and hopefully make you proud. I miss you.




Soldier, keep your head high, look proud, even through the rainiest, coldest and darkest weather.

Maybe.. just maybe..

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more, would i still have you?



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Do you remember the days where, it used to be chill and stress free? The days that brought us back when we had nothing to care about, but playing with legos and perhaps barbies if you were tryna get the girls in kindergarten. Where did all this shit go to? Sometimes it doesn't end up the way you want it to, but that's okay, countless heartbreaks just makes a person stronger, regardless of the situation. I could remember when i first approached a girl, i stumbled, i couldn't think straight and there were a few dozens of those sleepless nights, just thinking about how to make this situation a lot better. Maybe thinking about how to ask her out on a date, thinking about what to say the next day, maybe tryna figure out what she's thinking in her head.
In the end it was always disappointment, knowing that you couldn't be with her, maybe she had another guy in mind, but you were always there for her. Yes that was me, the kid who always tried to make an approach, but failed miserably. And now, i put on that asshole front, just to make myself feel like i can do this. You may say that i try too hard, but i don't care what you say, what matters to me is that if i can get this right. I don't mind if i fail 12312321312 times, as long as i pass once, i'll be happy. I know for a fact that it was for real, maybe if i gave it some time we'd both end up thinking differently. This sucks but i have to get this right. The worse part is giving myself false hope. And there you have it, the story of my life.

hey.

Hey Girl, i'm doing this for your own good, but fun's over. Take it easy and maybe call me up when you're not that busy with your life anddddd all that shit going on in your life, because it seems like you don't know what you want. I've been noticing that jealousy was an issue for you, and i should of known better. To be honest, i don't know what i want either. I guess that we both live different lifestyles and it's too complicated to comprehend with one another, it sucks but seee you around.

Straight up. You don't know if your bros or the hoes are being true to you until they have proven themselves to you, so nigguhs don't go around calling each other bros when they're just a dick that keeps talking trash about you and for em' hoes, don't go around calling them dicks, 'babes' when that shit means notin'. Gotta keep this ish real, and just be yourselves.

nigguhz bounce.

Back to square one.

Alright, let's break down my day. So today hung out with ayex for a bit, and than went to some ghetto ass japanese restaurant on kingsway and knight, or around there. So what happened was a pair of undercover cops came in, and was suspecting underage drinking, but that wasn't the case, they were more worried about gambling because we had dices and all that jazz to do with drinking games. Lame sauce, and people who ate with us were cheapasses, and people sitting at our table over paid a shit load, because some people didn't pay enough. Nonetheless, we got our food just when we were about to leave, which was whack as fuck cause it was sooo slow.
No offense, andrea, but today had to be one of the bunkest days of 2010. END RANT.


Besides the fact that i'm kinda mad about a bunk day, a lot of shit has come up, and i'd rather not mention it, thinking about it gets me kinda cranky. And once again, for the 123123121th time, i apologize to those that have experienced my "PMS."

Leon out.

A moment with you.

Girl, go out, have fun and do your thing, but i want you to remember one thing.
I want you remember all the good times we've had together, because one day we might never be able to relive that moment again.

Love,
Private Cheng.

Feelin' a little superhuman and shit...

You know when i listen to all my 'homes' tell me about their girl problems, it makes me feel kinda emo. I look upon my own situations and see how i can relate, but yet it doesn't always work out that way, i guess i haven't experience a "true first love." I may sound like the guy that knows all the shit but yet i don't. I may sound like the guy with a tiny bit of game, that can sorta talk to the girls here and there, but yet i don't have one myself. Ironic enough to say, i can't get a girl, i'll admit this to all my blog followers. Everytime, i'd get excited once i find that "target" and it turns out to a big disappointment, along with a few heartbreaks. And once again, i tried being the love guru for my bros, but yet i can't get some. I may sound desperate, but is it really all about being desperate, tryna look to hard for love? When people say love will come to you, you don't have to go out there and look that hard, i automatically smell bullshit already. I believe that in order to take that first step into love, we all must put ourselves out there, let ourselves be options for those single ladies, perhaps game them a little, chit chat a little and so fourth. So.. fella's get your game on, step out there and don't give a fuck what other people think or say, because "those who matter don't mind and those that mind don't matter." Love is out there, we just have to get in the circle and making ourselves available and always remember to be humble.

Thanks for your time.
Leon.

This is only the beginning.

I can't belive that the last few weeks has beennnnnnnnnnnnn sooo funn. I haven't had this much fun in who knows how long? A bit of drama here and there, but what would this world be WITHOUT the drama. The world would not have character without this shit in our lives, as much as we hate it, we need it. It was cool listening to all the stories about heartbreaks and breakups, but we all know we will experience it at some point in our lives. So don't feel bad if you've broken up with your boyfriend or vice versa, we know how yah feel, i can always lend you my shoulder. =)
NYE started out really whack, went out with parents to some family gathering until 12:45am, my sister dropped me off at another place, thats when things started getting GOOD, a few cute girls here and there, nonetheless it was a blast regardless of how many people were in that house. Not to be cocky, but i think i'm getting better at this game. I'm happy, i really am, i remember when i started out as a noob, i could barely hold a conversation with girls, and here i am.. This is a wrap, school's around the corner, and i'm not gonna fucking fail anymore courses, bitches. Winterbreak 09/10 was the shittttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt........ Probably the best time i've had in my life.
Thanks girl, you made it awesome for me, let's make it work?

Pictures of the last few days, was kinda too lazy to update, so here it is.
































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