Identify yourself....

Till this day, i don't know what i'm even trying to accomplish in life, i have too many goals, but yet i can't seem to lay an eye on one thing that i really want to do, it's hard. I see so many things in life that i probably would have never seen probably like 6months ago. I hate it, how i realize so many things could have went different and probably for the better. But that's life. We all know our roles in society, and we all have our own lives to live. When you know that things just don't go the way it should go, make it better, fix it up, patch it up. Keep working at it, no matter how bad the situation is, it'll work out in the end if you put all your effort into it. You'll know that you didn't put enough effort in it when things are actually possible. As one would say, "We learn new things everyday." It's my new moto now, i believe that is true, we learn more about ourselves everyday. Sometimes we hear shit we don't like, regardless of what you hear, ignore that shit yeo. The more you listen to things you don't want to hear, the more it going to bother you, it's unnecessary stress that we stress over. Then again, some things are out of our reach. So for the people that are constantly unhappy about their lives because how they look or what they lack, think about the people that have to live with "battle scars" for the rest of their life, whether it could be a loss of a member in the family, a rough life, or anything that goes along those lines. Quit your whining, and just keep living life. Be happy, be grateful that you're alive. Don't let the little things bother you in life and keep moving forward.

Hate it or love it, this is the real deal, accept it or not, that's for you to decide, but i know i got shit to do, now let's make it happen.

Real talk.


"Keep hatin' on me, because i don't give a FUCK."


OUT

RIP

April 22, 1964 - Feb 16, 1997

Wow, it's almost your birthday. It's been 13 years since you've left. I'm doing fine, but i wonder how you're doing...

Sigh...

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I felt so helpless, that one night. I saw those burning flames within your eyes, not knowing what to say or do. It's so obvious that you were mad. I was scared, i couldn't think properly. We got onto the skytrain, you sat in front of me. I could see you peaking at me every few seconds from the window reflection. I knew you wanted to say something, but you couldn't quite spit it out. I didn't know what you wanted to say, and i was scared to approach you, you looked hella fierce. I can tell why you're so mad. It was my fault, you couldn't even speak a word to me, that's when i knew things were really bad. "Please calm down," i thought to myself. You're really mad, i know. I know it all, you have every reason to be mad. Tell me how i can apologize to you, you looked way too mean to be talking to anyone. Tell me that you're doing okay.


I'm sorry.

I really wanna blur my thoughts, and not think about it anymore, but i can't. I can't see that look on your face without feeling a bit torn up inside.

It's all in my head

I'm not gonna lie, my new years resolution for smoking did not work so well. I've been hacking a ton of butts as of late, and i don't know why but i feel like it's the only thing that can help me relieve stress, i hate how it's the only option for me.

There's a lot on my mind right now, and i'm really tired. I can't sleep late at night, thinking about it over and over again of what i did wrong. It's not going away in my head, and the guilt has been charged. Over time, you'll realize what i said was the truth, and believe me, i keep my words, i'm not a sore loser, nor am i a "sore liar." I hate staying sober, i get too deep into my thoughts and end up over analyzing the situations that i encounter. I have a lot of work to do, i have priorities in life, but yet i can't seem to concentrate on things that need to be done. Papers to write, tests to study for, i can't concentrate, it's so hard to take my mind off it. The thoughts of being there without you scares me. God please send me an angel, i need help desperately. And i want this type love, where it would be like me thinking of you, thinking of me, thinking of you.

No matter what happens, i'll always be that one guy you can rely on, trust me, for the one last time.

I said, she said.

People talk. You hear things. People shout. You hear things. People whisper. You hear things.

Sometimes you hear things that you don't want to hear, and if it bothers you, what do you usually do? You're probably gonna want to talk to someone about it. I'm real about everything, i hate telling lies, i'm not good at it. So if you're one of those people that think i'm just another one of those walking creatures that like to drop bombs here and there, than i have nothing left to say.

First let's begin with lust, and end it off with trust.

"Some Secrets, I must keep within.
Times Flies, but You'll always have me.
No one is born to be lonely."

speechless

Think about what you're saying before you actually say it because sometimes you won't be able to go back and change it. So think hard about it before you actually speak it out. Words are hurtful, remember that. Once you say something to someone, you won't be able to take it back.



I'm fine.