i know what i want.

I made my decision, steeze over girls.

And that's foh sho.

Stack that paper and cop those new ish. And yes i know i'm materialistic, you don't have to remind me.

Goals

Hm, so i've been thinking about my goals for the next few months and years, i thought i'd jot them down so i don't forget...

- become a corporal by next year, fuck the private cheng, it's gon be corporal cheng ;)
- pass training this july
- get a tattoo maybe in august
- gain 15-20 lbs by the end of the year, so 185, hopefully
- gain some more brownie points from her ;)
- cop that dope boy fresh summer gear
- cop that drivers license
- stack that fat dough
- Stop getting C- only C's and above plz.
- no more emo thoughts, gain those happy points

and that's all i can think of from the top of my head for now.

What am i doing?

"What am i doing? Oh yeah, that's right. I'm doing me, I'm doing me, just living life right now. And imma do this till it's over, but it's far from over. Yeah."

So the weather sucks right now in Vancouver, it's way too inconsistent. And i believe that it really determines our mood for the day, people seem to be happier when it's sunny. Asides from that i don't have much to say, just doing me and living on with life. April wasn't my month, that's all i can say, it was far from being good. I'm happy to say that i'm back onto the road of redemption, and working my way up there again. Figuring out what a person really want is hard, so let's just say that we take another break and let things roll on it's own, not going to force anything anymore.

The worst feeling in the world is knowing that you've been used and lied to. And that's exactly what i feel like right now. People that aren't being straight up and just saying all that "stuck up" shit to you but from behind they're talking so much trash. Status and reputation.

I need to prepare for this shit mentally, because whatever happens, happens.
Get on it.

what would you prefer?

Sigh. I can't help but wait.
Time to suffer the consequences.

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Cheng is out.

All about you..

Looking back on the things that we did and when i see how things are right now, it hurts to say that it really seems like closure. Breaking every rule of the game, just to see how things would work out, DID NOT work out unfortunately. So for the next one, i will not break the rule, not even once. And for all those who helped me throughout this rollercoaster ride, you have earned the rights to laugh in my face. No regrets. I'm happy to say that, things ended this way, or else i'd be still giving myself false hope. "I'm glad that you didn't fall inlove me." A very complete yet, meaningful quote. That sums up my entry. I'm not disappointed at all this time, i learned from my biggest mistakes, and i'll do better next time.

I'm happy, now that you're happy with your life.

Private cheng is out, time to do my tax returns.

these are the seasons.

Save me from this fight because i'm loosing. Miserably. No matter how many times i overlook this situation i keep going back to where i started from, and no matter how many times my friends tell me to "fuck it" i can't get over the fact that it all happened. This is so hurting, for reals.

They told me that Money Over Bitches, i told them that Bitches Over Money

I wish we could bring it back to those times where it would be "dope every time we kicked it."

Hurting.