Recently i've been asking myself do i really want to connect with her?
Do i really want to see myself fail again?
Do i really have self-doubt?
Can i over come my fears and face the evil "monsters"?
Sigh.... What is that i dont understand about girls?
ALl the above, i must ask myself the ultimate question.....
And all of this, i don't ask for sympathy....... I'm asking for your help.
I look upon my sister's situation, both of them. I realize that they're both "throwing their love away." Both of their love relationships lasted longer than a year.... I just don't quite get why people break up sometimes........ Whilst i'm sitting around seeking for some companionship. So.. "Where is the love?"
Summer lover, "where did you go?" Seems like awhile now, now that you're with someone else it feels that your life revolves only around him. Nonetheless i still feel happy for you, it was a feeling i couldn't get over because the fact that i never told you ____.
Now that it's spring, summer is coming around the corner........ hopefully i'll see you around.
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Aside from all this girl shit lately, prom is coming up in about 3 weeks. I'm not even stoked for it. I Don't even know why, this year feels soo gloomy. And Grad Lounge is tomorrow night, hopefully that will change the atmosphere of my mood right now.
It feels like January all over again........ Tryna identify myself of who i really am...
Why is it that every spring come's a girl but there's nothing that we can relate to in the end..
Mating season?
I still lack confidence.... sigh
Currently i have nothing to look forward too because i know this year i won't have a summer, going off to training camp for 2 whole months..
"I walk on this lonely road.. on the boulevard of broken dreams..."
Lc21 OUtz
