Gonna kick the habit and start getting my groove back. It'll admit it i have been smoking cigarettes quite frequently especially when i'm with some friends, i thought it was be an occasional thing. Yanno the deal. Well i think it's time to completely lay all that shit off, i want 2010 to be fresh and steezin', but when i think about the things i've done in the past and to add this on top, puts me into regrets. I hate to admit this to some of my followers because some may not know this but i've finally come out of the closet.
Aside for myself, i'm really excited about tomorrow and how this weekend is going to turn out because last weekend was rather 'weak'. Sometimes things just don't turn out the way you want it to be no matter how determined you are. People have things to do, and so i do, but to make time for each other is a bonus and it takes a lot of effort for one to come out and just chill out, as i would put it, stress-free.
I think i should put myself to this 'hiatus-status' because school's taking a toll on me and i don't want to fail anymore courses, it was hard enough for me to tell my step mom that i failed philosophy, and it seems like they're kinda disappointed, yet worried. I've been very secretive to my parents, and i would like to keep it that way for personal reasons but eh. It takes a lot for me to tell them something because our relationship isn't that well off, it's probably a trust issue, they run their mouths to asian mothers like water and it makes me look bad.
So just a few minutes ago, i asked my 'summer fling' aka 'summer girl' if she ever felt for me, she answered, "you were boyfriendable material." The rest, she didn't fnish, because we already knew the answer to that, but it was fun while it lasted. To be honest, i'm really happy to hear that from her, sometimes it doesn't hurt to ask. I've been wondering for the longest time, it was like taking a relief dump from diarrhea. I know you have a boyfriend now and that you chose him over me, but if you ever have any problems, i'm always there to listen, regardless.
Enough about me, now what about yourself?
Thanks for your time,
Pte cheng.
