I've realized that you don't yell at someone that you genuinely like, when you don't mean it. It's pissing at times and you let your emotions out, especially when you're running on alcohol. Maybe this is closure, i'm really unsure of what's going to happen in the next few days, weeks, months and even years. Then again, i made a mistake by letting out my anger on the wrong people, such a stupid thing to do especially when you're all there to have a good night. I know my night was ruined when i finally realized that i did something that wasn't necessary. Very disappointed in myself, i only want to be appreciated, but i feel that i only get the opposite of that, but whatever. Probably one of the worse moves i've made in my life.
I'm sorry. I didn't mean a thing i said.
It's those little things that get to you sometimes. The phone calls that she said she would make at the end of the night, but in the end she didn't make an effort to even to say a good night. The promises that we had, you probably forgot already. It's so hurting thinking back to those things. I hate drinking sometimes, i get wayyy too emotional thinking about that shit. Reminiscing on those things that you used to say through text messaging, hurts a little more, on top of all the things that happened.
I epic failed.
Wow... found this on tumblrrrrrrr
