I'm 19 and i'm here to have fun, so fuck your shit.

I'm not going to lie, i'm 19 as of this moment, and you're all wondering, "Shouldn't you be happy?!" The answer is, NO. I'm not happy one bit. I think it's the things that are holding me back in life, the bullshit, the drama, it wears you down after a while, no matter how much of a "rock" you are, you'll eventually deteriorate. So i found myself a new girl that i'm currently seeing. She's dope, i'm quite happy when i'm around her, but i'm scared the same thing might happen. Call me captain asshoe, i don't give a fuck, but i might not love you as much as you love me, not trying to be cocky. Yes, i tell you i love you, but all in reality, how can you really love someone in such a short amount of time? You can fall for someone in a matter of seconds, it ain't the same when it comes to love though. Love is a strong word, i'd rather not use it unless i really mean it. Maybe, i do love you, but it'll only be a matter of time until i really mean it with my fullest intentions. I never thought i'd be calling you my girl so soon, and yes i do get intimidated easily around your friends. When your gut feelings tell you that you should just let it all out and have the time of your life, you always wonder, "why is something holding you back?" I'm entering my last year of being a "teenager" and it's quite scary becoming an adult. We can be having kids by now, and start a family, but fuck that.
I'm 19, and i'm here to have fun, so fuck your shit. I'll behave like i say i do, but if anything goes wrong, blame the alcohol, not me. Blame captain asshoe, not me.

I'm private cheng, what's your name?

Happy mother fucking birthday.