Never let you go.

Sometimes, i wish life was made simple. Nothing to worry about, nothing to care about, and nothing to dream about. I wish life was easier. I hate this. And there goes another one that will most likely end up in disappointment, i don't know why i even bother anymore, it feels like every time i'm almost there, the rollercoaster ride begins. I can't tell if this is something i need or want. What the hell is going on? Someone please tell god to help me. Maybe if i didn't have expectations, i wouldn't end up in disappointment, or maybe i just worry too much about the situation. And here i am again, with that asshole front, trying make something work out but it seems like everytime that i try the situation gets worse and whenever i try to confront, one tries to escape the reality. When will ever gain enough confidence to do the "big boi" stuff? Every time i listen to that song, he tells me to remain persistent, man i'm at the point where i feel like giving up and i don't even know why but it sucks to know that i want to. What's holding me back...? This training is moving fast, regardless if you like it or not. I don't like going at your speed anymore.


Life.