If she knewwwww

Sometimes things don't go as planned, but whatever. Friends, girlfriends whatever, same stuff anyway. I never thought of really being your friend to be honest, i thought it was the go in and get the kill kinda deal. It's not that easy, even though it's all about the click and the game, maybe the eye fuck, but it doesn't go down like that. At least, not anymore.

"Babe, i don't care if i'm your 2nd option, but i'm glad that i am option to you. ..."

It was hard for to ask you that question, but if i didn't, i'd be filled with "what if's" that might haunt me for the rest of my life.....
Now at least open up to me.

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This christmas i think i might ruin my parents christmas. No it's not about the shitty useless gift i'm about to give them, it's about school. I haven't told them i didn't pass one of my course yet and that another course for next term dropped. Better yet, they still don't know if my student loan has been approved yet. This shit worries the hell outta me, i'm not sure how to confront them. They've been rushin me to finish up my time at Langara and quickly transfer to university, i'm not even sure if that's a possibility right now. Although i'm paying for school on my own right now, i feel as if my parents are only there to encourage to get into university so that they can brag about it to the chinese mothers. So fuck that shit.

Dad, please do not hate me, i actually studied much harder than in highschool.

Have a happy Christmas!

Your son, Leon.