It's all in my head

I'm not gonna lie, my new years resolution for smoking did not work so well. I've been hacking a ton of butts as of late, and i don't know why but i feel like it's the only thing that can help me relieve stress, i hate how it's the only option for me.

There's a lot on my mind right now, and i'm really tired. I can't sleep late at night, thinking about it over and over again of what i did wrong. It's not going away in my head, and the guilt has been charged. Over time, you'll realize what i said was the truth, and believe me, i keep my words, i'm not a sore loser, nor am i a "sore liar." I hate staying sober, i get too deep into my thoughts and end up over analyzing the situations that i encounter. I have a lot of work to do, i have priorities in life, but yet i can't seem to concentrate on things that need to be done. Papers to write, tests to study for, i can't concentrate, it's so hard to take my mind off it. The thoughts of being there without you scares me. God please send me an angel, i need help desperately. And i want this type love, where it would be like me thinking of you, thinking of me, thinking of you.

No matter what happens, i'll always be that one guy you can rely on, trust me, for the one last time.